Decisions

You know those decisions you are forced to make in life when you know what the right thing to do is but you want to badly just to make the mistake. People say life is not always black and white. But I feel in my life, it normally is. Maybe I am just a boring person; but I normally know what is right and what is wrong. So why can I not just make the right decision? Why can I not just be a boring person who makes all the smart choices. Well I guess if I was that type of person I would be graduating from college in May. But that is beside the point. This decision I must make (by friday) never leaves my mind. For awhile I had decided to just make the mistake and deal with the consequences later. But after putting more thought into the situation. I do not know how long I can live with that mistake. Yes, it will be a lot of fun while it lasts. But how long will it last? The worst part of this situation? Is that I can not talk with any of my friends about this because I know what they will say. They will not approve at all and for good reason. Some of them have made mistakes similar to this before. But I guess I just learn a little slower than most people. So I guess the only thing left for me to decide is how much I respect myself and what I want out of life.